Wisdom

December 10th Prompt: Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?

Decisions are not my strong point. I am, by very nature, a very indecisive person. I once loaded my online shopping basket, paid for an order and cancelled the same order before reordering three times in a 24 hour period.
I have been known to wake in a cold sweat about what the children will wear that day - and they don't have that many clothes and generally the boy wears a uniform of the school or six-year-old-boy-with-a-football-obsession variety.
I panic about what shampoo to buy. I rewrite the same chapters of books over and over again. I take weak when chosing what book to read next. The only thing I have confidence in is walking to the same fridge in the off licence and choosing the same lovely bottle of Pinot Grigio on a Friday night.

So when it comes to widom and decisiveness... I'm not so crash hot.

I will say that the last few months/ weeks have been an eye opening experience for me. I have made some decisions which will hopefully make my life better - to keep writing will be a key one.

But the biggest decision I have made is to be there more for my children - to stop and appreciate them while they are still small. To sit on the floor and "pay bocks" (play with the blocks) with the baby and to act the eejit whenever I feel it will make them laugh. The decision to build a snowman with my son and to have a snowball fight and not care that we will end up soaked and cold. The decision to read the same book 100 times to my daughter rather than shoo her away. The decision to go for a walk and stop to look at the trees and the birds and encourage my children to do the same. The decision to be a better - not perfect - mammy. The decision to tell them I love them 100 times a day because even that is not enough. The decision to make Christmas seem even more magical than it is.
Each day I try and make small decisions, choices even, to make them realise they come first and that every day I love them more.

I think that's a good start.