Tuesday, February 16, 2010

So I went ....

And the panic was there. I sat outside in my car, in the pouring rain and felt my heart thunder.
You would have thought I was headed for the green mile, not the weighing scales.
My two sisters joined me - they have been WeightWatching for a while now and doing quite well - and they knew what to do, where to go, who to talk to, what to pay, which I admit made it a little easier.
But it taking away the thundering thumping of my heart - that was there to stay.
The leader, Betty, seemed lovely. Skinny but lovely. She didn't seem like the judgemental type but then again I wasn't telling her I'd overeaten on my points or sunk a dozen bottles of wine or the like.
I stood on the scales and yes, it was bad. Very bad. But not beyond what I expected. It just felt odd seeing it there in black and white.
So I've a small goal to reach - 5% of my bodyweight. And then it is onwards and downwards hopefully.

Hubby, however, who knows me so well was less impressed. When I asked him if he was proud of me when I came home he replied: "No. Anyone can sign up for a class. Ask me again next week, or in a few weeks' time."
He nearly got a slap. (or at least a crack over the back of a head with a bag of salad).

While I see his point that anyone, technically, can sign up for a class it took a lot of courage for me to do so last night.

But anyhow, this morning I clicked into my Notes from the Universe and it told me this much...


Claire, sometimes you have to let go, to stake your claim. Be still, to move forward. Give, to receive. Cry, to feel the joy. Pretend, to make it real. Fake it, before you make it. And sometimes, oddly enough, you must first decide to feel their love, to find it was there all along.

Therefore I dub today, and the rest of this week/ month/ year "fake it til you make it" 2010

7 comments:

Debs Riccio said...

Well done Claire, I'm enviously proud of you from afar! I read how scared you were yesterday and I knew that no matter what anyone said you'd still be frit come the hour. I am so behind you one hundred and fifty percent and wish I had someone I could go with to one of these meetings too. I keep concincing myself I can do it alone but it's not always the case is it?
Oh, and that part of Mr Universe's message this morning stood out at me too - I think we can do it. I know YOU can - you're a strong, spirited woman, so you are! x

Clodagh said...

Congratulations, Claire! And good luck!

Helen said...

The hardest part is taking the first step. Well done and that 5% will be gone in no time.

Shauna said...

The first step IS hard... you should have smacked your hubby for that :) Good on you Claire and here's to a good week!

Fionnuala Kearney said...

Well done CB, you ve taken that first hard step. Husbands eh! Mine has had to lose some weight for the first time in his life and he's now aware how HARD it is. WHen I see him hovering near the fridge, am I smug or what..! xx

Claire said...

Why thank y'all very much.
4pm on Day one and I've not fainted from hunger yet.

Sarah said...

Keep up the good work, Claire. Apparently when you're eating less, the first three days are the worst and then you regain energy and don't feel so hungry.

That's what this website says anyway:
http://www.healingdaily.com/juicing-for-health/fasting.htm
My bien aimé is trying to get me to do a veggie juice fast with him. In theory it sounds great...

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