Accentuate the positive

The very lovely Fionnuala has been, whether she knows it or not, kicking my arse this week about my slump in mood and general meh-ness about my career.
This has been couple with the equally lovely Keris posting on how even Marian Keyes gets the slumps when it comes to edits.
I think editing is classicly the time when you you just think "Feck it, it's all rubbish anyway. Who did I think I was trying to kid?"
So when a reviewer on Amazon (yes, I'm still harping on about that) said just those things it mirrored back my worst fears to me.
But, as Lloyd Grossman would say, let's look at the evidence.

• I've been published twice.
• Both books have been Irish best sellers.
• I have had some corking reviews in the national press.
• I have had women email me to say RD&T helped them overcome post natal depression.
• I was able to work with Aware Defeat Depression to help other women.
• I have been on the telly, and the radio and the papers and not made a complete arse of myself.
• I have a publisher and an agent who believe in me.
• I got some lovely emails/ comments after my last self pity post on here which made me smile (Thank you, genuinely..)
• I have a third book coming out in a few short months.

So while I have a fear that I'm not good enough, I think I have to remind myself of this amazing quote...

‘Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so?
You are a child of God, small games do not work in this world. For those around us to feel peace, it is not example to make ourselves small. We were born to express the glory of god that lives in us. It is not in some of us, it is in all of us. While we allow our light to shine, we unconsciously give permission for others to do the same. When we liberate ourselves from our own fears, simply our presence may liberate others.’